Long time no see...

Life is a busy busy full time job filled with extra hours and no extra paid, if you're unlucky. You said:"Life suckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkksss..." It's nothing like that little nasty pleasure when you trash your boss. You're trashing yourself. So why complain? I know my posts often times look like whining the hec out of my seemingly awesome life. But I learned from others' lives that I shouldn't complain.

It has come to the best time in Philly. The Spring, the sky, the flowers, the smell...I pity myself when it was bloody shining and I was sitting in my 3' by 3' little cubical between two diffusers listening to my numerous bosses complaining about the kids the job the sickness, feeling frozen like a penguin.

I went for a little shopping with myself this late afternoon. Penn already got their tents up. Oh yeah, it's the time for graduation! Poor kids, who are still sitting in our classrooms desperately trying to get over with the summer. I remembered my last summer here. And it was not exactly fun. It felt like Tom Hanks in that lonely little island with Wilson and the last FedEx box.

I was deliberately turned into a Friday night caterer because the guys have to work on some nasty computer science homework due on every Saturday 5am. Poor them.

A good news for me is I finally passed the written test for my driver's license. kakakka. Why I need to memorize things since there's ISO? So I'm not the one to blame. And I did not break Jang Won Seok's record.

I miss everyone back home. I wish I can get some time off from work and enjoy the warmth. How pathetic I would crave for warmth after spending 19 years in Canton? Philly is just too cold and windy.

There was this email sitting in my mailbox for 2 days and I was never interested in opening it. College is also good at sending you tons of emails in the name of communication and actually non of your business. So, everybody, In the name of prestige, I'm invited to join the National Engineering Honors Society. Hopefully I can get to know more info about my grad school and stuff.

And btw, I was searching through the internet for my childhood neighbor a few weeks ago and suddenly realized I'm so bored and it was never too early to look into graduate programs. So...A chance for me to stay in this country for graduate school finally exists. Europe is fun, but I don't know if i can handle the cold. Denmark or Troy, NY? We will see.

I was sitting in my office at lunch time the other day and mumbled to myself. I wanna be an engineer, an acoustician, and an architect having my own building before I turn 30. I know it's wild and unrealistic at this stage. But hey, I still get 9 years. Oooops. Like dad says:"Why can't you succeed when you're young?" I'm not saying I have to be a master kind of designer by the time. I just want my first shot.

So you're happy to see I have a big entry today, huh? It has finally come to a point that I really want to write a book for kids in terms of self-improvement. I understand that we all come from different backgrounds. I must be a great person in my last life to have born to my parents, if nirvana really exists. I have read the teen's autobiographies about college, life and relationships. I want to write a book that is not a show-off of my good life, but a piece of work to comfort the teens when they have confusions, depressions, ups and downs in life. The kids who reached me for information about applying for college in this country are all very different. Some are shy, some are eager, some are nerve-racking, some are calm and confident, some are naive, some are too dependent. But they are all confused. I want to write a book, that is not primarily a guide book for applying for a prestigious college, but a book to live a life by yourself, to live a life with all those difficult decisions to make-good ones and bad ones; to learn, to suffer, and to put up with the consequences after these decisions without losing confidence or complaining about life.

Well, I should draft an outline for my book then. Let me know if any particular part of my life that you're interested in knowing more. I have a lot of stories, not those with medals or great competitions, but stories of a normal girl growing up in life.